So, supposedly the writer of the email has been chewed out by phone, and supposedly he feels very sorry for sending the email. It was supposed to be a joke about my husband, and it was only accidentally a degradation of me, you see. So I'm supposed to feel sorry for him because he feels so terrible. Well, I don't. I'm glad that he feels badly and I hope he is really ashamed of himself.
And I talked to my sister on the phone, who knows that when I'm feeling really upset and like I've been harmed in some way, I just need someone to listen and be appalled with me! Don't start giving advice! Don't try to convince me that it's not that bad! Maybe you can LATER, but at first, just take my side!! Thanks, sister. I really needed that.
And I slept for a couple hours and feel a lot better. Though now I'm ravenous and I sure wish I had a chocolate baked good to eat for supper. :)
The best news is, I think I'm all cried out, finally. But for now, I'm keeping today as The Worst Day, hopefully never to be topped. And I did several loads of laundry while I was upset, so at least I don't have that waiting for me!
Also, if you're ever having a terrible day, I recommend watching some kind of insipid TV show, if you can. For me, it was a few episodes of The Hills, a show about stupid rich kids whose parents buy them cool jobs in LA. Oh, boo hoo! The rich girls have such trouble meeting decent guys and getting internships at makeup companies! Wahhh! It makes your own problems seem more substantial, valid, and worth brooding over.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
The Worst Day?
Or does it just feel like it?
A relative of my husband sent a very nasty, disgusting, demeaning email about me to a bunch of his family members, and to me. It's supposedly a joke. Maybe someone would think it was funny, but I really can't imagine who. The One Person who should be even angrier than I am about it has not said one fucking word in response.
I got in a car wreck earlier this week -- a perky blonde girl hit my car. She became much less perky when I wrote down her license plate and demanded her insurance card. This morning the insurance guy barged in, without any appointment, on my saying goodbye to my visiting family! I appreciate their excitement to settle the claim, but they should not inconvenience ME to get it done quicker -- their customer is at fault. Now the insurance company guy says they're most likely going to declare the car totaled. It's old and not worth very much.
THEN I got a rejection for a job today. I was unbelievably over-qualified for it. It would have been so fucking easy to do with the distraction of the upcoming baby. I guarantee you, without exaggeration, I was the most qualified and experienced applicant they had and I should have definitely been offered the job. Instead, I received a fucking EMAIL rejection. That piece of shit could not even take five minutes to show me the respect of CALLING ME?
Oh, I'm so tired and I know that's making it worse. But I'm too upset to sleep. But I won't feel better until I sleep.
I wish someone would make me some chocolate cupcakes! That is probably the only thing that could help.
A relative of my husband sent a very nasty, disgusting, demeaning email about me to a bunch of his family members, and to me. It's supposedly a joke. Maybe someone would think it was funny, but I really can't imagine who. The One Person who should be even angrier than I am about it has not said one fucking word in response.
I got in a car wreck earlier this week -- a perky blonde girl hit my car. She became much less perky when I wrote down her license plate and demanded her insurance card. This morning the insurance guy barged in, without any appointment, on my saying goodbye to my visiting family! I appreciate their excitement to settle the claim, but they should not inconvenience ME to get it done quicker -- their customer is at fault. Now the insurance company guy says they're most likely going to declare the car totaled. It's old and not worth very much.
THEN I got a rejection for a job today. I was unbelievably over-qualified for it. It would have been so fucking easy to do with the distraction of the upcoming baby. I guarantee you, without exaggeration, I was the most qualified and experienced applicant they had and I should have definitely been offered the job. Instead, I received a fucking EMAIL rejection. That piece of shit could not even take five minutes to show me the respect of CALLING ME?
Oh, I'm so tired and I know that's making it worse. But I'm too upset to sleep. But I won't feel better until I sleep.
I wish someone would make me some chocolate cupcakes! That is probably the only thing that could help.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
More Books! #10 - 22
I've been doing some reading this spring, but since I read some of these books a couple months ago, I can't remember too many details about them.
#10: You Suck by Christopher Moore
I think Moore is really intelligently funny. This one is about vampires in San Francisco.
#11: The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
This trilogy of books totally deserves its Best Seller status. They are fun, exciting, thrilling, and really well written. The plots are complicated and layered, but Larsson keeps them under control. The characters are well-developed. My only complaint is that there are a lot of horrible sex crimes in them, and I'd prefer not to read so much of that.
#12: The Girl Who Played with Fire by Stieg Larsson
I tore through this one even faster than the first.
#13: Cemetery Dance by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child
I really like the books by these two authors. They are thrillers with interesting (though absolutely unbelievable) plots and great characters. Special Agent Pendergast is a long-time favorite character who appears in this one.
#14: Fever Dream by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child
This one felt rushed, like they'd often cheat to advance the plot by suddenly being in a new location and Agent Pendergast would explain to another character how he followed a clue to arrive there. Still fun to read -- if you're looking for excellent writing, you probably shouldn't look to genre novels in the first place :)
#15: The Help by Kathryn Stockett
Excellent novel about early civil rights-era relationships between those Southerners who employed black servants and the servants themselves. Not too upsetting for us sensitive types.
#16: Frankenstein: Dead and Alive by Dean Koontz
The third installment in this series of sci-fi thrillers. Frankenstein's monster is alive and well in modern times and is on a mission to destroy his creator! Fun, fast read.
#17: Jazz by Toni Morrison
Morrison is an awesome writer, but I felt ambiguous about this book. It left me kind of unhappy at the end. (Of course I also finished it on an annoying flight when I was exhausted -- possibly no book could have made feel happy at that point.) The main plot of this one revolves around a cheating husband who kills his mistress and makes his wife go crazy, so it's not a light-hearted read. I guess I'm in the mood for more light-heartedness right now.
#18: The Killer Inside Me by Jim Thompson
How many times have I read this book? I first read it at about age 12, when our family got a used copy of it at a book exchange in my Dad's workplace. It's a gritty crime novel written in 1952 about a deputy sheriff who plays dumb to hide his inner sociopath. With this reading, I noticed multiple parallels to the TV character, Dexter Morgan, who I also love. They are both told by their fathers that they are sociopaths and that they can't ever live normal lives and have to hide in plain sight. Dexter pretends to be kind of wimpy, letting people walk all over him, while our deputy acts like a moron, talking mostly in cliches and pretending he just made them up. Like, "I've always believed that every cloud has a silver lining!" Once their respective fathers die, each man has to face new problems without his sociopathy mentor, and they struggle with it.
#19: The Elegance of the Hedgehog by Muriel Barbery
A lovely novel that focuses much more on philosophy than action.
#20: When You Reach Me by Rebecca Stead
A great little mystery novel told from the perspective of a 12-year old girl in NY in the 70s. I will definitely be reading this one again.
#21: Birds of America by Lorrie Moore
Excellent, hilarious and beautiful short stories. Moore is a great writer.
#22: The Swan Thieves by Elizabeth Kostova
A big novel by the author of The Historian (about vampires!). I recommend both highly. In this one, a psychiatrist/artist unravels the breakdown of his artist patient. He traces the root of the problem all the way back to the 1870s and becomes far too enmeshed in his patient's life and relationships.
And I'm reading a bunch of books about babies, pregnancy, exercising while pregnant, baby name books, still working on War and Peace, and also devouring the third Stieg Larsson book.
#10: You Suck by Christopher Moore
I think Moore is really intelligently funny. This one is about vampires in San Francisco.
#11: The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson
This trilogy of books totally deserves its Best Seller status. They are fun, exciting, thrilling, and really well written. The plots are complicated and layered, but Larsson keeps them under control. The characters are well-developed. My only complaint is that there are a lot of horrible sex crimes in them, and I'd prefer not to read so much of that.
#12: The Girl Who Played with Fire by Stieg Larsson
I tore through this one even faster than the first.
#13: Cemetery Dance by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child
I really like the books by these two authors. They are thrillers with interesting (though absolutely unbelievable) plots and great characters. Special Agent Pendergast is a long-time favorite character who appears in this one.
#14: Fever Dream by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child
This one felt rushed, like they'd often cheat to advance the plot by suddenly being in a new location and Agent Pendergast would explain to another character how he followed a clue to arrive there. Still fun to read -- if you're looking for excellent writing, you probably shouldn't look to genre novels in the first place :)
#15: The Help by Kathryn Stockett
Excellent novel about early civil rights-era relationships between those Southerners who employed black servants and the servants themselves. Not too upsetting for us sensitive types.
#16: Frankenstein: Dead and Alive by Dean Koontz
The third installment in this series of sci-fi thrillers. Frankenstein's monster is alive and well in modern times and is on a mission to destroy his creator! Fun, fast read.
#17: Jazz by Toni Morrison
Morrison is an awesome writer, but I felt ambiguous about this book. It left me kind of unhappy at the end. (Of course I also finished it on an annoying flight when I was exhausted -- possibly no book could have made feel happy at that point.) The main plot of this one revolves around a cheating husband who kills his mistress and makes his wife go crazy, so it's not a light-hearted read. I guess I'm in the mood for more light-heartedness right now.
#18: The Killer Inside Me by Jim Thompson
How many times have I read this book? I first read it at about age 12, when our family got a used copy of it at a book exchange in my Dad's workplace. It's a gritty crime novel written in 1952 about a deputy sheriff who plays dumb to hide his inner sociopath. With this reading, I noticed multiple parallels to the TV character, Dexter Morgan, who I also love. They are both told by their fathers that they are sociopaths and that they can't ever live normal lives and have to hide in plain sight. Dexter pretends to be kind of wimpy, letting people walk all over him, while our deputy acts like a moron, talking mostly in cliches and pretending he just made them up. Like, "I've always believed that every cloud has a silver lining!" Once their respective fathers die, each man has to face new problems without his sociopathy mentor, and they struggle with it.
#19: The Elegance of the Hedgehog by Muriel Barbery
A lovely novel that focuses much more on philosophy than action.
#20: When You Reach Me by Rebecca Stead
A great little mystery novel told from the perspective of a 12-year old girl in NY in the 70s. I will definitely be reading this one again.
#21: Birds of America by Lorrie Moore
Excellent, hilarious and beautiful short stories. Moore is a great writer.
#22: The Swan Thieves by Elizabeth Kostova
A big novel by the author of The Historian (about vampires!). I recommend both highly. In this one, a psychiatrist/artist unravels the breakdown of his artist patient. He traces the root of the problem all the way back to the 1870s and becomes far too enmeshed in his patient's life and relationships.
And I'm reading a bunch of books about babies, pregnancy, exercising while pregnant, baby name books, still working on War and Peace, and also devouring the third Stieg Larsson book.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Happy Summer!
Hi all,
Sorry I've been ignoring the blog for so long. I had a secret and it was tough to avoid mentioning it, and the secret itself made me tired and that made it harder to write anything.
There it is. I'm so excited, you guys! We're 15 weeks along. In 5 weeks we'll be able to find out if it's a girl or a boy, and we want to know. 5 weeks goes by so quickly AND YET SO SLOWLY.
I feel simultaneously like:
I am not ready. I need 5 more years before I can be a good parent.
AND
Hurry up and get here, Baby! I can't wait another second for you!!
So, that's the big news. I have lots of other stuff to tell you, but it kind of pales in comparison.
Try this:
Sorry I've been ignoring the blog for so long. I had a secret and it was tough to avoid mentioning it, and the secret itself made me tired and that made it harder to write anything.
We're having a baby!!
There it is. I'm so excited, you guys! We're 15 weeks along. In 5 weeks we'll be able to find out if it's a girl or a boy, and we want to know. 5 weeks goes by so quickly AND YET SO SLOWLY.
I feel simultaneously like:
I am not ready. I need 5 more years before I can be a good parent.
AND
Hurry up and get here, Baby! I can't wait another second for you!!
So, that's the big news. I have lots of other stuff to tell you, but it kind of pales in comparison.
Try this:
We got married!!
And this:
We spent our honeymoon in Las Vegas!!
See? Also big news, but they seem a little less big, right?
Okay, I'll be back soon. Now that morning sickness has let me out of its evil clutches, I have some more painting photos to share.
Okay, I'll be back soon. Now that morning sickness has let me out of its evil clutches, I have some more painting photos to share.
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